107.4

As of this morning. I've had my sweet tarts for the day and unfortunately I'm on the verge of fainting (Not really, it just feels that way. I hope hah). Good thing is that its already 5:30 which means only an hour and a half left of work. And all the hard stuff is over with. So all I have left is sitting here and occasionally getting up to do something. I really just hope that I'm able to hold off from eating anything until tomorrow. I have a bunch of healthy foods - light yogurt, egg white, vegetables, fruit. I just can't bring myself to eat them lately. I know I have been eating CANDY off all things, but it translates differently in my head for some reason. It's like powdered sugar and I guess I just feel that it speeds up my metabolism and gives me energy. And most importantly does NOT give my that full feeling. I did, however, break down earlier and have a light yogurt at 60 calories. I made sure to take half an hour to eat the thing though. God forbid I shovel it down my throat like a little piggy.

In other news, I have to meet up with the ex tonight to get the rest of my stuff from him. I hope he doesn't try and give my some ultimatum or something. I really would just like to be left alone. Then I think I'll pop a few melatonin pills and be off to bed. I hope I'm 106 by tomorrow, it would be lovely.