Good ol' plateau

I ended up not only walking that 5 miles, but added on an extra 2. Bringing the total to 9 miles (adding the two other miles from the AM). I did treat myself to an ice pop; I thought I might faint if I didn't. And I woke up to 114.4 on Thursday. Again. I wasn't heartbroken. I MUCH rather see the same number than a higher one, but it's just a tad bit disappointing when you worked so hard and were expecting to lose. I guess that just goes to show that you should never expect anything from life. So Thursday my limit was 300. I had some salad topped with a bunch of veggie - NO dressing. Dressing scares me quite frankly, and is completely not worth it. A peach which was probably around 75 calories. And some pretzels at 110. I fucking love pretzels. Sooooo good. As weird as it sounds they are even better with mustard. And my sister let me have 2 gummy bears as well. bringing the total to around 300. I know what my problem is though. I NEED to plan what I eat and stick to it! I got paid today and went grocery shopping so I actually have good diet food to eat. I must say, I'm pretty excited:))))))
Oh, and i finally broke down and got some diet pills. Ive been trying not to because I'm paranoid of having heart failure so hopefully I dont drop dead. If I do, its been a good life hah (;
I have to run to work, so I'll catch up on anything else lataaa!

Sorryyy....

for the previous meltdown. I'm back to normal...ish hah. Anyways, I have decided to start the skinny girl diet (once again). This time around I feel it will be much more sucessful due to the fact that I am no longer smoking pot. So my weigh in this morning was 114.4. It's crazy how one binge can throw away so much hard work. For some reason, I kinda like it like that. It makes it harder, which makes success that much sweeter. 110 for a goal weight sounds okay, but looking in the mirror I'm sure that's far bigger than I'm wanting to look. So I'm gonna go ahead and bump that number down to 105 for now and see how that goes. Here's my daily intake for the last two days..( I started Monday, but haven't been posting due to my schedule. That really is becoming quite the bad habit.)


Day 1 (Monday): 400
Orange - 75 calories
Chicken Noodle Soup -  120 calories
Pickles - 10 calories
Ice pops - 50 calories
Peanuts - 160 calories
Exercise - Speed walking 5.36 miles
Total: 415 calories

Day 2 (Tuesday): 300
Orange: 75 calories
Strawberries: 50 calories
Honeydew: 100 calories
Cheese Stick: 80 calories
Exercise: none :(
Total : 305 calories

Day 3 (Today/ Wednesday): 400
Orange - 75 calories
Orange Bell Pepper - 25 calories
Some Peanut M&Ms - 50 calories
Planning on having....
Rice with bell peppers and onions: 200 calories
Total: 350 calories
I already walked 2 miles this morning and I'm planning on walking at least 4 tonight. I would like to walk for 5, but we will see how this goes. And if I have what I'm supposed to for dinner, I think I'll treat myself to an ice pop. Those things are dammed amazin' and they say they are 30 calories, but I just round them to 50 because there is NO way something that sugary and good could be 30 calories hahh.
Anyways, I'll try and keep up with updating so if i don't feel free to bitch at me :)